CAS Journal #5-Meditation

Ive now completed a second session of meditation and this time less people came, not sure if that was because they didn't like it or if they just couldn't do it, no matter the reason I plan on sticking with it since the first session had a great effect on me. This session was kind of a repeat since there were some new faces and so the instructors gave an overview of the hand gestures and body forms. My goal for the session was to work on my attention skills and drown out the sound of kids eating and the instructors talking. I found I wasnt as successful in this as I would like to have been but its just prove that more practice is needed. I underwent another fifteen minute meditation session and after wards I realized I had the same great feeling as last time. The trick is not to focus too much on the scene you create in your head, in my case I dont focus on what the trees on my beach look like or how light out it is because that can cause you to get carried away with thoughts and lose concentration so instead I focus solely on the water which blocks out all other thoughts until the only thing I can hear is the water and the silence of my own head. I felt I wasnt worrying about how I was getting home today or how I was going to complete my homework since I had a meeting tonight and other such thoughts that usually do nothing but annoy me and make me cranky. This also helped with the anxiety over driving and how I was going to do my driving hours next week, this had been clouding my mind all vacation and was now interfering with my school work so by drowning out the worries and focusing on my beach I realized that everything would work itself out and that the important thing is that I focus on things one day at a time, the driving is next week and so when it comes to time to drive Ill just up and do it. This club is really helping with my coping skills and Im actually finding myself excited for the upcoming class, its a little break from all the high school drama and work and it always ends in me feeling renewed.